Chapter 40 – Reaching The Bottom Of The River

It took a few days for me to start this chapter, and often people will get the wrong impression how does one come up with ideas on what to write. It took days and many title changes for me to figure out it’s not working. That’s how life is sometimes. I could have written many chapters since the beginning of this saga, but they wouldn’t amount to anything at the end. I find often in life; this concept applies to all situations. We might be the most motivated people on this planet, but the heart wants what it wants, no matter how much our head pushes through. In this case, my heart is just not in this place and like that, it gets quite difficult to be productive. Can I push through? Maybe, but it just wouldn’t be it I believe. When moments like these happen, move on. It’s as simple as that. Don’t dwell on facts and statistics as they will only amount to negative energy. Move on no matter the disappointment, and maybe it might seem counterproductive, but you rather provide something of quality than something you might hate or even regret. Lately has been a turmoil of emotions for people around me. I have witnessed people walking straight into their own abyss, pain, and misery and I try to help, but without success. The problem is, I simply can’t be someone’s solution. I wish it was that simple, but my reality doesn’t apply to the realities of others. Could I say the perfect phrase to fix the issue at hand? Doubt it. Psychological issues are much bigger than an advice to fix. I am aware of my feelings and with good habits, I have managed to contain my emotions and to be aware of moment-al issues, and I call them so, because they only last as long as the feelings are there, but like all feelings and emotions, they eventually fade out. That can be an issue for impulsive folks that act on their emotions, because often they won’t feel the same once that moment passes and then they will reconsider their acts or even regret them. So, what is the solution to this magic issue of feeling depressed and feeling burnt-out? In my opinion, usually feelings cause other feelings and they are all connected. In this logic, one must find the root problem to the chain of emotions. Why does it begin? How does it end? And how long does it last? All these questions have consequences if they aren’t answered or taken in consideration. Some feelings last a minute while others can be for days, weeks or even months. It can make a huge difference to feel something very shortly and to be unable to have enough time to make mistakes. I’m not saying always, but most of the times, we will make mistakes in moment-al emotions, such as doubt, fear, love, lust, etc. Do we see a pattern here? Can you guess by now what is that one must do to go through these moment-al issues? If you have read my previous chapters, it would be very simple to know the answer to this magic question however there is an additional way. In life, there are always two choices at least. Either, do something about it, or don’t. When in doubt, don’t. Now, imagine battling a current in a river which you are fighting to not get carried away. You can fight it, and if you have the strength for it, surely, you’ll get out of the current but if you had the strength, you wouldn’t be asking yourself these questions in the first place. Not having the right strength, you will battle the current only to tire yourself out, and what have you done then? A colossal mistake that can cost your life. So, we come to the magical answer we all been waiting to hear but probably knew all along. Don’t fight the current, don’t fight the feeling, don’t fight life. Ride it out, and sooner or later, you’ll reach the bottom of that river, but at least you’ll be dry again, and alive. Life is simple, and we can’t trust everything we feel especially if we don’t understand its interpretation. Ride it out, wait for the end as it will come, and you will feel new again. Often, it’s the simple answers that are the correct ones. We just must trust them a little more. All rivers have ends.

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