Today, I read a 16 personalities explore-your-type type of thing. In it, in my personality (ENFJ-A) supposedly, I came across an interesting phrase that really caught my attention. It said not to worry when you are not recognized but strive to be worthy of recognition. It truly resonates with what I do. In one way, I often see that my efforts don’t fruit recognition, and as long as I remember, I have been reluctant to chase the light in that way. I said to myself if it happened, it will happen, but I will never make it about that. I find people chasing recognition have self-esteem problems, and they love the light, long as it doesn’t blind them and hurt them. When they go wrong, or when they are unable to keep up with the demands, they crash down as people lose interest. I strive to be worthy of recognition without chasing it. I find this way my true ambitions stay loyal and I don’t get swallowed with shallow goals. I will see in any social platform such as Instagram, or LinkedIn people portraying their ideals to the world, but behind the eyes, you can feel and see the struggle. The need of acceptance and the need of everybody’s approval and envy is what drives people in these places in the first places. I almost want to say that often these people had legit mental problems and they have found a fix to these, however what will happen when this light fade? What will be their solution then to not feeling fulfilled and successful? Ideally, they will be able to translate one solution to another that’s more suited to their time, however this is dependant on people they rely on in the first place. This can be a problem and it’s always good to be proactive on one’s problems. So, what does this teach us? It teaches me at least that life can be too short to focus on the approval of others. I maintain my goal and I write my chapters regardless of how many people read it. This to me demonstrates that I do things out of my heart and if I can maintain one habit, it’s easy to translate this reflex into other spheres in my life. I don’t seek recognition but part of me would feel happy to receive some. However, I don’t stop if I don’t get it. I don’t seek recognition, but I maintain quality in my work to be worthy of such thing in the first place. If you do things less, because you think no one is watching you, you should remind yourself that the most important critic is watching you: you. Maybe no one will ever read my chapters, but I know one person that will, and that is me. I keep going at it and hoping one day to be able to look back into my life and understand that all I have done was for myself. It will also allow me to pass on part of me to my family and people that care about me. Part of me will always live on, because I have engraved my soul onto papers. This cannot be taken away, and while images lose context, words don’t. Words describe how one feels and describe anything one needs to note. For example, today, I am wearing a black shirt, with blue jeans, it is winter outside, I am happy in life, and I have a wonderful family and life. I am also a little under the weather, and it’s been 2 weeks of it, and I am getting tired, but I am never tired to fight for life, fight to be happy, and I am especially never tired of life. If anything, I feel blessed like never before because everything I want, I have it. My struggles are on a different note, and while I have much work to do to fix them, I do things like this super-well. I don’t seek approval of others, I don’t cave into my weaknesses and especially, I don’t do things less just because no one recognises my work. One day, my efforts will make sense to the world, and while I understand them, I don’t expect anybody to care for them. I hope you understand that in your life, you must find what drives you personally, and not what drives the world. If you are looking for approval left and right, you will never find your true calling, however maybe you just might. I am not the one to strike absolute statements and while my reasoning applies to a lot, it doesn’t mean there are people out there that aren’t meant for that spotlight. Life is very complex, and one cannot have all the answers. In all this, I just hope everyone is aware of what they do and the impacts this may have on their well-being. It is important to understand one’s feeling to understand one’s intentions. Often, all your answers lie in your heart.