Years go by, people go by, actions go by and most of all, life goes by. We come to a point in life, where it’s either we break down, or we make amends to all the wrong we have done in our lives. Perhaps your life is perfect and you don’t have these issues; which is quite amazing frankly, but I wouldn’t be able to say it for myself even if I lied. I lived my life to the fullest, and I have been, lived, and saw the most amazing things in my life but like all things, when you take too much good for yourself, you end up taking it from elsewhere and this causes a butterfly effect to everything that surrounds you. Life has a funny way to keep its balance. It doesn’t allow you to live like a king and for everyone around to be doing the same. When we take, others give and when we give, others take. It is simple like that and that’s where this equation comes in. After a while, your teenage hormones kind of gives up on you. You think you might live like a king for the rest of your life but anyone slightly more mature understands that for all things comes an end at one point and the higher you are on the throne, the more difficult it might be to come back down. This, of course, doesn’t apply for everyone as not everyone is the same. There are people that just don’t feel the same nor do they have the need to empathise with the world around them and we must accept this as ok. So how do you come back down? That’s that fine life where you feel that you let everybody down and that all these years, you have only been selfish. Part of it is true and isn’t necessarily bad, but needless to say, we feel like we have to make up for all the wrong we have done in our lives. That’s that stage in life and for those who went through it, you’ll know exactly what I mean by it. Truth is, we must make up for this whole mess we left beside. It is important as we can only go forward and mature further by admitting this exonerating life we just lived. It is important to live life this way as that selfish passage brings you closure and gives you the opportunity to witness the good and the bad in order to assess the balance eventually. Some of us are born with these insights and good nature, but then most aren’t. As for me, I have been very very bad in my life. I have done things, I have hurt people and disappointed others more than I can count. I don’t live in regret, and as much as I’ve done badly, I have done more good. I always felt like I lived purely, and for most, I didn’t chose that path. That path was simply in front of me, and I had little to no choice to take it, or at least I felt like it. I’ve done it and nothing can change that now, but there is a choice I made, and that is to amend the bad I have done. I don’t do it to because I feel like I need to cleanse my soul. I do it because I feel like it is part of life to do so. There was a time to be wild, unreasonable and careless but then that was fine, because most people at that age, don’t look for inspiration in their peers; they look to be impressed. Slowly as we age, it becomes unthinkable to do so. First, the younger folks look in the older folks for inspiration and what kind of inspiration do I seem if I live like a teenager in my adult life? That’s nothing impressive and people will think that’s normal to become eventually, at least there’s a possibility. As we age, we need to provide reassurance to the youth that life gets normal at one point, and that’s it’s normal eventually to live differently. I lived like a king, and at this point, I don’t want that life, I want a simpler life. I want comfort and happiness around me. I want to make parents, friends and whoever matters around me to feel happy around me, and that part of that happiness is thanks to me. That’s life, and sooner or later, we all must make amends for the life we lived and it’s ok.

-Alekor, June 15th 2016