A thousand lives and a thousand projects won’t change fundamentally who I am. I am a man of many ambitions and I have started a thousand projects that I haven’t yet finished but, I still hold on to these as if deep inside, I know they have purpose. My mind changes over time, and I find myself to become better and better over time, however life isn’t easy still. I have achieved greats feats and I have become a better person in general, yet I still find reasons to dwell on my life and how I ride it. To say we can accomplish everything in a lifetime is a major overstatement. No, you cannot. You can try to squeeze the lemon as hard as you can, but there so much juice that can come out of it. Some opportunities come and go, and new ones always appear. There is never a lack of opportunities, however opportunities are defined by the time they exist in. So, after all this time, what have I done? I still feel like I am in the same position as I’ve always been in. I can’t seem to shake off the only thing holding me back: my mind. My mind travels a thousand thoughts a minute but, my life stands still as if I never moved. My paradox is that no matter how fast I am in my mind, I don’t move forward. It feels like time slows down with time and I have yet to discover my purpose. Is my purpose to achieve great things, to start a family or to create new things? I have achieved great things, I have invented things, I have applied for patents, I have became a teacher, I have had hundreds of jobs, I have build buildings, I have bought land, I have found love, I got married, I have created companies and made a shit load of money and problems, yet I still feel like I am in the same place as far as I can remember. You just can’t turn a stone into something it is not. I read over these chapters as if they are fragments of my life and realise that no matter where I am and in what time, I don’t change and even more, I am reinforcing who I am as if it wasn’t enough of a torture already. Underneath it all, I am still that boy that dreams, that flies, that creates and loves like no other people in my mind. Are you? 20 years of tracking my thoughts has only thought me that in order to find happiness, you have to let go of it all. You must enjoy the little things in life and ignore everything and everyone else but yourself. It is a harsh reality but as people, we can only rely on our truths and everything else is just a theory that can never be understood or confirmed. As far as I know, none of this is real and it could be all an illusion as far as I can tell, therefore it is imperative that we focus with our eyes and our heart. Don’t let anyone tell you how to live, what to chase and where to be. There are no wrongs and you can only do good if you follow your heart. I see celebrities, rich people, poor people, homeless people and everybody else and the only thing I notice is how everyone is the same life. Where you are is what you define for yourself, everything else is a paradox.