Welcome back dear boy. Last time I had a talk with you, you were in a pit, though you got yourself out pretty nicely. Perhaps it took you time to realise what you had and what you’ve missed all this time, but time is on our side. We lost a couple of battles, but the war is ours and victory is bittersweet. You always wondered how much you could manipulate life. Truth is, a lot and very little. In life, you have the necessities, but when you desire more, it’s up to you to get it. All the tools are there for you to use, all you have to do really is give yourself a push and don’t stop. When you stop is the only time when you really give up on your ideas. Prove wrong and get what you always desired even if it takes a lifetime. Goodbye little boy, 12 years has passed by, I hope to see 10 times more.

– A year and a half later-

So we meet again, a year and a half later and it feels again like the last time I had a talk with you, I was in a pit. Life teaches you many lessons and perhaps it always comes back to the same thing. Your life was determined from the start. Until you get to the source of your desires, you will always be searching where to begin. If you’re feeling like you’re searching for a new beginning, for something wonderful, always remember that the first you need to do is be patient. Go back to where you started, to what you dreamed of when you were younger and make something of that dream. Your dreams is what shapes you, it is simply feelings expressed in visual fantasies. When a mind is young and developing, it wants the most. The fact that you feel this state, you have already found yourself and you have come to the right person. You need to self-analyse your life and find where you decided to turn and your destination. Farewell for now dear boy, glad to see you still fighting for your dreams. Sooner or later, it will be.

– Another two years after-

Hello dearest friend. It is only with time that you finally grasp what to do, where to go and how to find the answers. It still feels like the last time I spoke to you, you were buried deep in your own mess. Life wasn’t easy at some moments and it took a lot to dig out of that hole. Through it all, I remember looking back at these moments and understanding that I have pushed life’s boundaries out of love. I went to hell and came back, and in it all, I have never lost faith in myself. Kept a smile, and stayed strong when everyone around was breaking apart. I still feel like that young mind but if there is something I would have liked to know 4 years back, is that you have what you have in the present, and if you decide to just let it go to waste, it will waste. Some things you are able to fix, or do something else, but there are those few items you will never have again. I have used and abused everything I had, and because I have, I have sacrificed so much of my life. Yet today, I still carry on the flame burning part of my life as I have chosen those sacrifices. I could have done it smarter, and chances are my life would be much easier at this stage. Truth is, I would have left that energy to waste. I would have not saw the outcome to my actions and I would have never understood the value of what I know now. In life, we make decisions and the consequences of them, we got to fix them or do better next time. It’s starting to look simpler and simpler, the imagine I have been creating in my mind of my life. I understand it more and more, and I believe with time, peace can be found where I once thought I saw it. You are not yet out of the hole dear friend, but we will prevail, sooner or later. What you were looking for, I think we may found it, but only time will tell. See you next time my only friend. – Aleks/Sasa (June 20, 2016)